Archive for July, 2006

Lifetime, Challenges and Purpose

Sunday, July 23rd, 2006
Hello folks.. thanks for your
comments.
 
It surprised me, pleasantly, that many people
chirped up to ask me whether I am OK after the appearance of this post (coupled
with my absence from the `Net for quite some time now.) Many
thanks.
 
So I feel that I have to clarify that nothing
seriously undesirable happened. These are, but just challenges that perhaps everybody
has to face up to. The difference is probably the degree of difficulty, whether
these are things that one has control over or not, and whether the return/reward
for facing up to these challenges, and what is the level of reward for your
efforts in conquering them, does it commensurate with your troubles, is it high,
low, sufficient… or… even non-existent at all? And… are these recurring
problems/challenges? Or can they be solved once and for all? And if they can,
then why not? Why don’t you?
 
Actually, the purpose of this post is definitely
not to complain about the situation - If it were, I wouldn’t even bother writing
as there are bigger things in life than that, bigger fish to fry, if you may.
The purpose of this entry is to recognize that certain
niggles exist in life - certain undesirable aspects that one has to strive to
solve - and the goal is to solve these - once and for
all
.
 
The previous two posts serve to record that there
are happy days in life - and there are frustrating ones as well.
Without deeply realizing this - life would just be
like a goldfish swimming in a goldfish bowl, not knowing about the concept of
time or purpose in life, and most importantly - not knowing that it
is ever in water in the first place
. "Water? Where is
it?"
asked the goldfish in the pictorial depiction of the ancient
Chinese philosopher Zhuang Zi’s sayings. But once that fish is taken out of
water, it does not matter whether the fish realized the existence of water or
that it happily swam in it just a moment before - the lack of water will be
seriously apparent.
 
So, the purpose of posting those two posts - one
has to realize that there were ever days that one was happily swimming and
breathing… compared to not ever remembering that one was ever happy, healthy
and at ease during the times when one is in a situation like a fish out of water - And: one has
to realize that there is a possibility of being like a fish out of water…
perhaps not apparent, but perhaps at some time or another - and I always
subscribe to this saying by the great sage Sun Tzu (of the Art of War fame)
"Better for one to prepare, than to hope that the enemy will not
come."
 
There are no challenges for the goldfish who is swimming in the goldfish bowl. Day in, day out, all the same. But is this a good thing? For one thing, it won’t go out and do great things like win the Nobel Prize (contribution to science on the dissection table does NOT count) or make love (if the owner just decides to keep just one goldfish.. boo hoo) It has no control if it ever feels bored with the limited real estate, wants to change the furnishing, or heck, even if it doesn’t like the goldfish bowl and wants to change to the latest trendy rectangular aquarium. Compared to the stream and lakes… where it has the freedom to look for new friends, change its housing if it gets bored and look for a mate of its own (as opposed to either an `arranged marriage` or remaining celibate for the rest of its life in the goldfish bowl). Sure, there are challenges outside.. like it can get eaten by bigger fish, etc. etc. … but at least it has options. Sure, food is not obtained at regular intervals, but at least it has the option to look for food by itself, as compared to just going belly-up if having an owner that for whatever reason (beyond the goldfish’s control) happens not to feed it.

Fine print: For the more pedantic biologically-correct purists (aka jackasses), let me inform you that, yes, I am aware that goldfish do not make love in the same way that mammals do, and probably are not known to derive pleasure in the same way. This is just an illustration for analogy purpose only. (Sorry to deviate from the flow of the topic, but then again, you never know when such assholes will come along. Just another gentle, friendly necessary pre-emptive measure.)

To sum up, let me just highlight this from my
previous entry’s comment box:
 
From Jay:
>>But I guess its only a human nature to
have a tendency to sorta remember those bitter moments better than that of happy
ones.
 
That’s why I quickly recorded that I had an overall
happy time. At the same time, I record that I have rough times as well. Without
recognizing this, and just drifting through life, I feel one just doesn’t have
the impetus to improve. Just the things that I use to move me to: To make sure
that for whatever things that I have control over, I will not waste my time in
moving to make a difference.
 
Without realization that life is short to do all
the things that you want to do, or by resigning too easily… one just works for
survival. I do feel that I have control over things such that I can do better,
though.

Despair.

Saturday, July 15th, 2006
After a post on happiness… it is perhaps..
fitting that there should be a post on despair.
 
I’ve put off from posting this for three days…
mostly because when I get out from the situation that is the root cause of this
despair, then I tend to quickly do other things and try to run away
from it, to abjure it from my mind.
 
But this is a recurring theme. And
according to Murphy’s Law, if it can happen, it will happen, the only
question is: when. It’s just a matter of time. Sooner or later,
I will  record it down.
 
Now, what’s the purpose of recording a happy time
in such a brief post recently? To me, it serves a big purpose: To
remind
me that I ever had happy days
before
. Because when you’re in a situation, it feels like, it
always feels like
, that you never had a good day before,
and this kind of despair, when you’re in it, this situation, is ever going to be
recurring, without end.
 
Perhaps there is some good of this after all.
According to Lao Zi many centuries back, if there is no ‘bad’, the concept of
‘good’ does not arise. If there is no ‘despair’, the concept of ‘happiness’ does
not exist. Yet: After realizing this, to not do something,
anything, to break out of this despairing situation… I just think,
are we consigned to just be like this after using up the first twenty years of
our life? Is this all there is to life?
 
And what are my gripes?
 
Perhaps these are just little things to you.
Perhaps you think that others have been through worse. Perhaps you think that I
should just be quiet about it since there are others who have it worse. On the
other hand — maybe others don’t even have the opportunity to go
through these things. I can’t say whether that is a good or bad
thing.
 
But: whereas there are some who are willing to be
quiet and go through it grudgingly and look at it as just small things,
I will not. Because I
cannot.
 
What is the purpose of recording this down? Someone
once mentioned, to motivate oneself to go for something, one should think of two
things: The happiness, the happiness that you want to run towards, and the
despair, the utter despair that you want to run away from.
 
Despair #1:
My heart just sinks when I get stuck in traffic. I
know, I know, regular thing for most folks out there, I know. And some others
don’t have the opportunity to experience this, I know, but I cannot say whether
that is a good or bad thing. For sure, I do not get stuck out there without a
reason. It must be in the course of chasing something, that I am out
there. So, having or not the opportunity to chase this thing… good or bad, for
others, I cannot judge.
Being out there, breathing in all the exhaust
fumes… in the locally-conceived vehicle with arguably the most (1)
fuel-inefficient engine… (2) SOV*. I am totally opposed to the latter two…
but I have no choice.
 
(*SOV: Single Occupancy Vehicle. Coupled with fuel
inefficiency, this goes against my green tendencies. But I have no
choice.)
 
Despair #2:
Being called back to work on Saturdays, Sundays and
after hours
I know, I know, other people have it much worse,
I could choose something that does not require all
these, but: Surely the reward would be less.
Other people I know get worse. It’s OK with me if
they’re fine with it. But it is NOT fine with me.
As I post this up, I am expected to go back on
Sunday, now, today. Let me not begin to describe the
feelings.
 
(As a side note, I wonder is it only
Asians who are that dumb (or just have no choice) to
work like this. I remember hearing that Mat Sallehs don’t seem to have this
concept of putting in hours like this.)
 
Despair #3:
Location.
There is no word that can better sum up my feelings
when the vehicle I am in comes off the bridge to the island side :
Despair.
Bad air and congestion, congestion and
congestion.
 
Despair #4:
Years.
Thinking about this, I don’t know whether I made
the right choices. Or should I change the schedule, redeploy.
The problem is, whichever way I want to go from here, seems to be taking a step
downwards.
 
 
Makes me think, whether I should apply fiscal
policy
to alleviate some of these (i.e. spend money) but
as we know, that is not a long-term cure. Or should I make some decisions…
which likely involves austerity measures … that would impact the long-term…
(but: that means: the austerity measures are for long-term as well) and as we
well know, austerity measures are not popular measures.

I Feel Good.

Monday, July 10th, 2006
I feel good.
 
I feel happy.
 
This is a moment that I want to acknowledge, to
record down for posterity.

A lesson we can all learn

Wednesday, July 5th, 2006

France were written off as no-hopers at the beginning
and throughout this tournament following their abyssmal performance at
the last World Cup… which included losing to Senegal that time… but
guess what… France… they are in the finals of the World Cup Finals
2006 now!

The moral of the story is… do not prejudge.

I bet the team never stopped believing in themselves despite their past
setback… and with their self-belief and fighting spirit… they are
now once again in contention for the top honour.

Whichever way the competition goes now — I am not a France supporter,
but, surely — I admire a team that defied all the doomsayers, and in
such style too, by going all the way to the finals… ahead of
more-fancied teams like hosts Germany, or even England… and defeating
mighty Brazil along the way.

As I said, I have no particular preference for whoever to win the World Cup… My message here is: that
there is a lesson that we can all learn from this — not to give in,
even when others do not expect one to do well… instead believe in
yourself, instead of believing in those who do not believe in you…
and give it your best!

And may the best team now win!

 


Cheers to my friend Joehan for the heads-up on this. I agree! :D
Refer to:
http://joehankeong.blogs.friendster.com/this_is_joehan_mate/2006/07/france_wc2006_t.html

Before I Forget…

Sunday, July 2nd, 2006

Oh yeah… I did post up sth in my friend’s blog.. which reflects my thoughts (of course!)

So, I think I’d just post it up right here too… so, here it is:


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ubill  said…            

I guess everyone… no, I should say… I assert that everyone would have these questions for themselves. Sooner or later… it’s just a matter of time…

In
fact… These are the questions on everyone’s mind.. For me, these
questions can be cleared with accomplishing something and getting a
sense of achievement… BUT:: as we go further in life… what
we need to do to get that `sense of accomplishment` or `feeling of
moving forward`.. …is getting harder and harder… not anymore just
simple (in the big picture) things like study and pass, get good grades
and get that degree…

Sometimes we may even have this question for ourselves… whether we can even accomplish all this.. so many things… in our lifetime

Daunting, isn’t it?

Cheers

`ubill~ 

    J.J. said…         

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12:51 PM

Wildlife Pix: Discovery Channel (Episode 1)

Sunday, July 2nd, 2006
Hey kids!
 
Welcome to today’s episode! This is for all you
nature lovers out there! ^____^
 
Today’s episode was captured using professional
nature photography technique - the technique of time lapse photography. This
way, a sequence of slow events can be made to unfold immediately right before
your very eyes! Just like how flowers can be filmed to appear as if from the bud
stage to full bloom in just a matter of seconds!
 
So, here is such a sequence of wildlife
events!

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Family of cats.
 

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Mother is in alert mode - I disturbed
it.
 

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Looking around… sensing for threats… One of the
little ones has already got up.
 

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Time to move…
 

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Moving off…
 

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This little one is still blur.
 

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The others are already disappearing into the
wilderness…
 

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This little one is still blur. Just woke
up.
 

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Also time to move…
 

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And, that’s all for today’s episode,
folks!
 
 
See you in the next episode!
 
 
With Love,
`ubill~
 
 
 
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Special Guest for the next episode: Folks, put your
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Stay tuned!
 
With Love,
`ubill~